My mum and I had reached a consensus that I should stop working and go study a full-time degree next year. Then, I can go take up some part-time job to supplement my own expenses or allowance.
The thing is, I don't know how is she going to come up with the money to pay my school fees because I've got no assets to liquidate! Probably I have just enough to pay for the first semester, and that's just how pathetic my savings are after 2 hard years of working. Seriously, after "scanning" my room for at least something to call "valuable" to explain for the pathetic savings, I realized I had nothing of that genre and wondered where had all my money gone to. Argh!
On another note, I've also got no idea what course to pursue: management or mass comm? But one thing for sure, I'm never going to take IT again because I don't think I will ever go into some job remotely even IT. The most "IT" thing for me would most probably be to maintain this blog thingy. That's really how far I would go.
It was never easy for me to make decisions, let alone say make such long term decisions concerning a huge amount of money and perhaps my future job.
To digress like I always do, I shall make a small connection to my mum on what she thought of the courses I used to be interested in.
When I was young, I had this ambition to become a lawyer. Simply because I watched too many movies/television programmes, and lawyers always looked so smart and prestigious then. Then one day, I had to blabber to my mum, "I think I want to go study law." At first, she said, "Wah! Lawyer good ler! Go study." Blah blah blah. But a few days later, she came back and tried to discourage me simply because her church mates thought that lawyers are cunning bad people who only care about money blah blah blah. And thus, she thought so too. I didn't really take into that story, but I didn't manage to take law because that was just a "spur of moment" ambition. I also had no idea why I chose to study a diploma in IT (most probably because most of my friends chose that), and I regretted til this very day.
Then, after I graduated with a diploma in IT, I had to think of what degree course to take up next. I procrastinated and pro-longed my decision until now. But there was a time when I was seriously interested in taking up Psychology because I'm curious about what went on behind people's minds. Then, I had to blabber to my mum, AGAIN, "I think I want to take up Psychology."
Mum: What? Don't want lar, later you turn psycho how?
Me: ?????????
Then, a few days later, she came back to me on the topic again.
Mum: Don't take psychology ah, my church mates say psychologists are EVIL people who use unorthodox methods to make you say/think what you are not suppose to say/think. Simply said, they don't go hand-in-hand with God. It's the devil's doing. (Blah blah blah)
Me: (more ??????????????)
I was like ???????????. Why does my mum always take what her church mates say VERY seriously??? I wanted to shout, "NO! PSYCHOLOGISTS ARE NOT EVIL PEOPLE!!"
Then, another few days later, she came back, saying, "Aye, I think psychology is good lar. Coz hor, my another church mate say psychologists are actually good people because . It's just sometimes there may be black sheeps. That time the Auntie XXX had a wrong perception, blah blah blah"
I was like ????????? again. Why doesn't my mum have her own views??? Maybe that's where I inherited my disability to have my own views and make decisions.
Anyway, I discarded the idea to take up Psychology although I AM still very interested in that. No, not because of what my mum or her whatever church mates said, but because I had to spend A LOT of money before what I study can be truly recognized in Singapore.
That said, I'm still stuck with the choices: Management or Mass Comm? Til later.
